Born a horse

Posted by Ann Evans in Uncategorized | 0 comments

I was born in the Year of the Horse.  A little wild.  Tameable only by a tough, experienced cowboy.  Curious, roaming.  I like the wind in my hair.  Horses are dumb, and I won’t claim that, but I’ll claim all the rest.  I’m a horse with a human brain.

When I started dating again, I knew it would be painful. I was starting, after two divorces, at square one. It was painful — the emotional equivalent of physical rehabilitation.  I told myself what I had always told my kids, when they refused the medicine, “It hurts to get well.”

The deeper I went, the more painful it got.  An M.I.T. scientist who had been married 60 years said in a tv interview that his secret was that every day he thought about what would make his wife happy that day.  Not flowers.  Not a walk on the beach.  Maybe a phone call, a Big Mac, a fire in the fireplace, a chat.  He has remained mutating, sensitive to her.  That sounded like heaven, and I dreamt of finding such a man.

Such a man has come into my life, and still I yearn for the open plains.  I cannot shake my desire to snort and paw, to run with the pack, to turn my head on a winter’s day and size up the stallions roaming the edges of my territory.

Am I self-destructive, self-defeating, deluded, insane, or am I a true mustang?

Horses, too, can have patience.  The answer will come.

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Life went on again after Daring to Date Again: A Memoir ended, so I began this wide-ranging blog about life as a writer and as a woman in the early 21st century, especially as an older woman.

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